[he keeps staring at her even after she looks away, trying to keep a lock down on all these feelings he doesn't want to feel — anger? hurt? whatever it is, he doesn't like it and would like to stop feeling it now. it's not like he can feel happy that she couldn't tell him to leave. it's not a real victory when their lives are still a mess.]

What's so unfair? That I won't make it easy for you to lie? Oh no, what a fucking tragedy. If neither of us want to stop, then there has to be something we can do.